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Saturday, June 25th, 2005
3:06 pm	Havent updated in a couple of days because I was getting my new comp INSTALLED to my house and stuff. No cable modem just yet but hey I can't complain. I am still on AOL but its 9.0 not 6.0 and I HAVE NO VIRUSES AND VIRUS PROTECTION BIOTCHES.. Sorry I ve been waiting for a new comp for the last year. Didnt go to prom but it was well worth spent with my lovely amazing boyfriend :-D Tommorrow I graduate and have the family shinding. And wow I am so nervous. I am gonna have sooo much foodddddddddddddddd.. Have work tonight but hopefully it should go by fast. Car is in the shop 2nd time in a week :-( Well gonna go do stuff.. laters.. The song of today is dedicated to my love.. :-D Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
11:21 am	New live journal name: XVoidG1257X Not using this one anymore..I am starting off new. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
9:39 pm	I write in this because not many people ever read this anymore and not many people know of this as my xanga is in popular demand. This weekend went well,really well. Things happened that I have been waiting to happen for awhile but Iam now rethinking my decisions. I should have known the things I was getting myself into. I was too busy though thinking of only the good things that come out of it. Maybe I shouldn't put my self towards it too much. I should just let things go the way they are. Ive got other things to focus on than something stupid and little like this bother me. Ive got to grow up,look and reach further. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
10:52 am	I've been having trouble concentrating lately. I really need to get focused. I keep putting off things because I have been completely exhausted but maybe in reality I have been using that as an excuse for laziness. Yes, I do I admit I am quite lazy. I also have not been keeping with certain commitments. Maybe I need to step back a bit because everytime I force myself to it, I don't have as much fun or put in enough effort.I need to find my inner self. I haven't done that in awhile. I 've been writing meaningless love poetry all the time.I need to chill and focus on this amazing introduction to a story with no plot. I can't figure out what I want the plot to be. Maybe I'll post it up here to get some reaction and hear what the reader wants. I am usually against criticism in the begininning, but I've had a huge writers block. Maybe they will be able to help me break the ice. Other news, I am really bored and in public speaking. I am in the mood to go shopping. I am doing that with Katy Timko Sunday. Its funny my mom offers to take me shopping but I have been having such hatred for her lately because of what she's done to me, and exspecially my money,so I decided it be worth going with my best friend. Besides even if I went my mother would probably make me use my pocket money instead of the money that shes been saving up for herself that really is supposed to be for me AND my clothes that was from my grandmother. My grandmother really got upset with her this Easter.. I am gonna go before I say more. I am gonna finish doing research. Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
11:06 am	Well I am in public speaking supposed to be doing a research project but what do you expect, I am the last minute procrastinator with Senioritis. Havent wrote in this thing in awhile and I miss it. Not much has been new with me. Broke up with John for the best of reasons. Reasons I'd radther not get into.. I can't traumatize myself anymore than I have. But I am once again head over heals for someone though. :-D I ve been feeling much more happier lately but as usual I've been unorganized, well just my room. One of these days I am gonna attack it head on full force. Its about time. I just havent had time really though. Been busy with work and school. Than Marissa is coming over tommorrow to work on a school project after work. Than Friday I am hanging out with Nate. I decided I am not going to Triangle because for 2 weeks straight, Ive been working every night, family dinner outings-which turned out to be a complete disaster and Triangle and DeMolay. I want to go out before 830 for once. I have not had that in awhile and its driving me insane. Well I am gonna go, Ill hopefully update more later. Current Mood: gloomy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
12:50 am	And I ll try to love again.. Too much of a long story.. Another scary night..ill eventaully talk more about it.. He almost said he loved me because he told me he wanted to say it but not freak me out, right now..my response wouldve been nothing because at the moment i am lost in thought with him.. His parents came home and saw me,his mom was happy to see me from what it seemed and his dad didnt even say two words to me..I know exactly what hes thinking and I am asking myself the same questions..   (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
12:36 pm	Happy Becky is Back. :-D Well, I am totally over the whole thing that happened Sunday now... Even though when me and John were playin around I said something really mean to him that I shouldn't have. That was yesterday though... After getting a decent 12 hours of sleep, I am feeling more refreshed and more clear in my head. Today I have work 5-C, with the worst closer ever... But Ill get over it because as soon as I am out, Traceys comin over with a bottle of Jack. John and Teri are supposed to come too but since I am too lazy to pick his ass up, if he comes, hes gotta find his own ride. Besides not seeing him for a day can clear my head even more, and for if my tongue is still slipping and I act like a jackass again tonight..he wont have to witness it. Still have no idea what iam doing for new years.. I sorta just wanna chill with my family this year but I also wanna chill with john and some friends...but I dont know.. I am gonna take a shower and eat breakfast... -Becky Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
5:18 pm	I want to cry.. He hasnt called me today to tell me if hes okay and iam bugging out.. Went for a run before and i am not really hungry.. I just need to hear his voice and tell me hes okay. Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
1:51 pm	And the night mare stops..forever and ever... I ve been listening to Coheeded Cambria alot lately.. there is this one song that I think is particularly alittle scary but intriguing and some of the lyrics are "...Pull the trigger and the night mares stop, Pull the trigger and the night mare stops, forever..." It gets me thinking...I don't know its a weird song, and who ever actually would do that, has to be the BIGGEST IDIOT ever.. Christmas was great. I had recieved everything I wanted. I hung out with my family and ate amazingly well. Then I went to John's house for a bit and hung out with his family. His mom bought me a really nice white sweater..His cousin asked me if I could say go Fuck yourself again to him..apparently his family likes me because I did that to him.. I ve gotta clean my room and do some stuff.. -Becky Current Mood: pensive (Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
12:18 pm	Merry Xmas EVE!! Well,for starters..Merry X-Mas Eve Thank god break has finally come. I don't think I would have been able to survive much longer than I already have. I ve been busy for the last 2 weeks doing papers and attempting to have a day by myself but that just isn't the case. Last Friday, I was gonna just stay in, take a nice warm bath and finish "The Bell Jar" By Sylvia Plath, but John decided to come over. It wouldve been good and nice, except he wanted to go to Petco and and hamster,yes at 9:00 at night. So we go and we get him, I named him Oreo hes cute, but all John did at my house for the rest of the night was play with him.I was really tired..Than Saturday I was just gonna chill, but noo I had tons of laundry to do and my mom was being a bitch. Sunday wasn't that bad,I got out of half of my chores because I went ape, and went to the mall with John, Joe and Harry. Interesting time. Than we went to Jillians and hung out for a bit, and then I was supposed to go Ronkonokoma-Cant Spell it.. bleh, but instead, we went back to Petco and John wanted a girl hamster to mate with Oreo, so we did that and he let me name this hamster again and I named her Marshmellow. Then this week consisted of never ending work and over due papers.. I went to John's house last night..he had his familys friends over.. Very nice people..I was kinda shy though.. Me and him hung out in his room all night just watching the Matrix and I fell asleep on his bed.. Nothing stupid happened.  Tonight I am supposed to go out to Suffolk and hang out with his family for xmas eve, but its not gonna happen. I need my night to just munch out and sleep..and besides tommorrow i have to wake up early against my will to go out to the Hamptons for the day and celebrate Christmas there. Much wrapping of presents and cleaning to do..:::Groans::: Bleh.. -Becky Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
9:25 am	Long time no speak. I have not writen in this thing in soo many months. I am supposed to be in creative writing right now working on a fantasy fiction but I cant seem to focus. It's the last day of break finally. I have to go to work tonight but I don't have to close. I have most of my college applications in except for five towns which I have to write the application for, but right now I feel content with my life right now. Sure, there is always the little things that I want to make better in my life,...like dedicating my life more to Triangle and DeMolay and waking my ass up. Its in the middle of my senior year and I feel I am at a crossroads. I feel like I have lived 100 years and I am only 17. I am taking time as usual with everything and expecting the unexpected, but I still feel like there is something missing in my life. Alex is home for Christmas, which I am greatful for. I miss my brother constantly. I feel like that me and him have gotten closer through the years and I was hanging out with him and Gio lastnight. We were just talking about the most random things and Gio almost started crying. He couldn't believe that I am actually growing up. I hope to keep writing in ths more often... I totally forgot I had one of these.. Well I am gonna go.. i gotta finish my paper.. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
3:38 pm	Found my dress, I am happy.. Work 5-C..Fun..I ll post more later.. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
11:27 am	Happy...But Sad.. Crazy stuff has been going on... I mean CRAZY.. I have 2 regents on the same day as each other...and I am soo afraid I am gonna mess up.. I dont want to go to summerschool this year. I cant..it wouldnt be good.. FAILING THAT STUPID MATH A AGAIN...no this time iam not gonna let it happen. I refuse. And then I got the US History and Gov't one. I am doing better now... but seriously...the week for before the both of my regents, I am locking myself in my room and studying my ass off until my head falls off. I wanna do so many things this summer its not funny. I have the oppurtunity to away TWICE!! And I figure it will be much easier for me if summer school is not in the way. I am pretty psyched and cant wait till June 30th.. I can't believe its happening.. Never in a million years.. All my arguing was worth it... I can't believe it. Saturday is the one year anniversary between me and Will. I am soo happy!!! One year, wow... I feel close to him more than ever!! I wonder what he's planning... I still duno what to get him...agh!!!This isnt fair!! Well I am gonna go.. Psych has just ended...And now off to boring english.. I wish it was summer. Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
5:35 pm	wow Long time no speak...Howdy Y'all. Nothing much happening here in Beckyland. Got a new job,Zorns.O yes,they rock my socks..exspecially when I am working with most guys that are decent looking... And I am currently relearning spanish so I can talk to the dirty mexicans...yea...thats my freetime at work, wasted away at 6 dollars an hour, 21 hours,4 days a week. I cant wait till all this regents garbage is over with. I also gotta bring up my SATS..:-/ Didn't get the score yet but i have a baddd feeling...so my over emotionally abusing mother is throwing me into an SAT class...SOMETHING SHE SHOULDVE DONE 6 MONTHS AGO... Well anyways,my school work and slavework is yelling at me to finish up the days work...see ya later... Current Mood: determined (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 28th, 2004
9:12 pm	I am crazy cause this is my 4 th entry today-haha iam skitzo I feel like my life has taken some really sharp turns lately.. My dad gave me a lecture today about my job...I told him that he and mom taught me to stay with something as long as I can, and never let anything get in the way. All of asudden lately, I haven't complained or anything,but he said if the going gets tough,quit. He's sick and tired of me hurteling through obstacles all the time. He wants me to do something I am happy with. He's sick and tired of seeing me get thrown around by people in my life who under estimate me and make me feel like garbage. When everything else was tough, he told me to deal with, I always have. But I feel like with his lecture,it's like he's letting me go. I dont know. I guess I am gonna see whats out in the job criteria anyways...tis better to be safe than sorry... exspecially if I get my ass kicked at work. I wanna look into a medical office. Doing some filing or something,something local too would be nice. -Becca Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:16 pm	Yes.. Its official. I totally feel screwed over. Yesterday I wanted to see my friends and I had to deal with Will, today he went over Kevin's house and I didnt get to see my friends yesterday. This is not fair. I am really pissed. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
6:00 pm	When Becky starts thinkin,she don't stop..specially when she procrastinates on papers and shes bored My gut is throbbing today as ussual. Finished my papers and research, normally you think I'd be happy but I am alittle pissed off. Ya know, I am expected to bow down to people who hold my hair when i throw up, thank you very much I can do that myself... And I feel like Ive been taken advantage of lately...ALOT. I am really fed up, I dont care anymore. My gut hurts, I AM EXTREMELY ANNOYED. I feel like my end of the bargain is getting screwed over, and its not fair. Yea, I am in pain and I am not in a good mood. I dont care anymore... Tradition is fun,thats all I have to say... Current Mood: irritated (Comment on this)
3:22 pm	Gut Ripage. I find my life currently hysterically funny right now. Yea last entry I was way down in the dumps. Last night me and Will had some fun lastnight, then the fun got into alittle roughage which in that case I pulled my gut and yacked my brains all over his lawn..Sorry. I have to give Will alot of credit. Hes always there for me when I puke my brains out or when I am sick. And honestly,I admire him for that, because alot of people would just run. Hes my love, I love him to death!!Too bad that playtime got alittle rough,I was just getting started.(not to gross anyone out) Yea,and then we told my mom I was at Julz's house but we really werent.then there was this whole convulsive diffusion but every thing came out okay..its all good. g2g... I got one paper to finish..YAY!! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
12:28 pm	Becky Glinski's Life isn't great,it was NEVER great... I wish I threw my self off the cliff ages ago.. My life is useless. I fuck up to much...its always my fault..and i question my own existance because of that. At work I can't work the stupid register. I ve been a slow learner and always have been and its really starting to agitate me because iam fast. I like to do things fast. My mouth is in need of serious dental work-stupid ass genes...yea I officially hate my mom's DNA. What am I good for??Honestly I wanna know. Because I have never been able to do anything right in my life. I am walking klutz. I was always the underdog, I was the one that always messed something good up. If someone does have any of these answers for me, Please tell me...Because right now I am having serious regrets and feeling like I am not good enough for life... Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Friday, March 26th, 2004
2:56 pm	OMG IAM SO HAPPY!!! IAM SOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:-D Today is FRIDAY!!YAY!!! Cool stuff this weekend comin up...Will's pickin me up at work tonight and than were going back to my house to see American Wedding. Than tommorrow the padres wont be home,...yep yep yep. Fun amazing stuff ahead of us. Also afterwards, well stop by the AMAZING Julzala's house and do the movie marathon thingy.. Well I got to get ready for work.....YAY I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!! I am also happy to report this for once the only time i report my mood as HYPER!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: hyper (Comment on this)